Lord, You said the neatest thing a couple days ago, something I want to acknowledge here. You said I had BOGGED down in blogging, because I was leaving the L out. The Love. I had bogged down by forgetting Love. So what I want to ask You is this: how can that be? I try to focus on love every day, on Your Love, on loving others. How could I have been leaving the L-Love out of this blog?
It’s not that you left out Love when you posted your blogs, it’s that you left out Love when you thought about your blogs. Your blogging became more of a burden or a duty than a joy. And we talked about this–you began diligently and faithfully and persistently seeking Me…for others. And then, only for others. Thinking you were acting out of a sense of need, you forgot your own heart’s need, and in that forgetting, you forgot Mine as well. You got so intent and so focused on helping everyone else find their connection with Me, you neglected your own. You actually let yourself slip back into the old pattern of thinking that I was primarily interested in using you, in having you be an example for others, and not primarily interested in YOU. In every person on the planet, as an individual, unique, YOU, that I love, that I cherish, that I long to be connected to. Not a link in a long chain but a precious, singular child. That is what you forgot. You forgot how much I delight to spend time with YOU.
Think about your favorite moments with your son, with the grandkids. What memories stand out most? What kinds of future experiences would you long for? Aren’t they all about connection? What about your friends? Same thing. You long to connect–I made you that way. It is who you are, at your core. At your foundation. I long to connect. It is Who I Am. Part of the reason for the hiatus in your posting daily was to get you back into a routine of hearing from Me daily, for yourself. To renew your own joy and your own sense of clarity and direction. To hear from Me not only about all the people you love, but hear Me whisper to “just you.”
You so often say, when friends answer the phone, it’s just me. You laugh, they laugh, but here is what they hear, and what I often hear as well. You still devalue who you are, in their eyes and in Mine. The L-Love I want you to put back into your blog, back into everything you do and think and say and feel, is not My Big L Love for the world, great as that is. It is not even your love for Me, great as that is. It is My Big L Love for YOU. It is the Big L Love for you I would have, even if you were the only person alive on the planet. The sun would rise, the moon would wax and wane, the stars would spin and the creatures would sense your nearness, all for you. I would sustain the universe for any one of you, “just” for that one. Just for you. You always think, for all of us. Yes. But I want you to begin to think, for EACH of us. And that means, not “just you” but “just for you.”