The year is racing downhill and I am indoors lying in a recliner with an ice pack on my back and a very poor attitude. Not a good way to begin a Vision Quest.
There is nothing wrong with beginning a Vision Quest out of frustration. Or sorrow, or grief or anger, or any other emotion. The only “wrong” would be not beginning at all. Everyone who came to Me for healing was healed: body, mind and spirit. That is all you need to remember.
Lord, I don’t know how or where to start.
You start a hike by picking up your pack. Why don’t we see what is in your pack?
Okay. It feels disorganized, thrown together, like my life feels right now. If I wanted or needed anything, like a flashlight, it’d be hard to find it.
So the first step is to clear out the clutter. That is what meditation does, it clears your mind.
Lord, when I go outside now, I am almost desperate to come back with a saleable image, as justification for going. Like no other reason counts.
Usually, the only way you rest is by being sick. Or injured. This is a long-standing problem. Even your vision quest you are treating like a march, hurry up and get there, rather than as an adventure.
Lord, it’s true. I am hurrying because I am anticipating being interrupted before I really even get started. I just want to understand.
Understanding is over-rated. You can experience without actually understanding. You can know without having words to fully explain. Here is what you experience, in your best moments: a connection to Me and to this earth that you are certain of. A joining. A call and response. I call, you answer; you call, I answer.
Lord, it is true. I say all the time, I don’t know how the radio works, or the tv, or the computer, or the phone, even!
But you enjoy all of them. It is time you experienced the joy again. What if I told you your new lens was a special gift from Me? That I—not your ego—planted the desire for that lens, and I pre-arranged its availability? What if I planned the whole thing? See, there is so much you “never thought of.”